suicidal.....

life sucks... BIG time....

..WHEW!!!.ü

swept away.....

no one in the world but you and i.. gota find a way to make it all the way that i do....

i just feel the need of letting go.....

..kinda tired.. but i went home early.. around 7?..i think? had training eh..

i don't know what to say.. iam really mad!?.. annoyed? uh,.should i say,. IAM REALLY HURTING??.. yea, thts it.. IAM HURTING.. and that's what you want right?.. to see me crying before you.. pleading.. begging.. you're happy when im hurting.. you want me to follow you.. you want me to take care of you, enough to show everyone that im the one who 'carries' our relationship.. you're afraid of what other people might say.. you live with that fuckin' kind of reputation.. you wana stick to that... you can't fight for me.. you won't fight for me......

YOU LIED!! YOU LIED!! YOU LIED!!! YOU LIED!!!!!.. you were afraid of me?!.. WAW!!.. how many mos.?!.. 6 mos. and you still don't get it?!.. 

it's NOT about the fucking sim... it is ALL about YOU.. trust?.. you don't have that... and i don't have that anymore.. 

... sobra ba ung hinihingi ko?.. bakit kahit isa don wala kang naintindihan?.. pareho padin.. walang pag babago.. di tayo nag ggrow..

i talked to arra.. i told her...

'ngayon ko lang naramdaman yung, gusto ko na talaga mag let go...'

'HAPPINESS.. FIND ME.. '...

when can i appreciate the real beauty of life?..

i got home around.. 10!! good thing my mom didn't say nethin.. she stared at me.. maybe because myong has this project, which she asked me to do for myongers.. arg.. shmpre,. di ako pdeng mag reklamo?.. hehe. i did something eh.. i promised to be home around 7?!.. hahaha!!.. bute nlng.. you brought me home.. <nearly 'home' hehe. thank you.. i really appreciate it.. >.. 

cheeering.. cheering.. cheering 

i love you best.. thanks for being there.. hehe. i have a lot of things to tell you(something to do with the phone call..).. HEY!.. stop loving her na?!., owkei?!??!.. arghness,, lalang.. she doesn't deserve you.. you're tooooo gooooooooooodddddd for her.. hehehe..  we're here.. and you know that..

'we'd fly away together.. till we see no more...'

my ghadd!!..=) it feels good to have arra again.. yay!.. not to mention this HD thing "we" BOTH have?!.. wink. hehe. <cnong WE ba to arra?!>.. hahaha!! newy..

GOD.. cheering thing is fast approaching.. GOD.. PATIENCE please?.. well,. i have that now.. i think?.. hehe.

TO YOU:i don't know what to do with you.. i just don't wana see you.. i don't wana hear nethin from you.. i so hate you... i hate you for being such..................... imagine?!.. you left me just like that?.. then you texted? you gave me this fuckin' reason?!.. a VERY mature explanation huh?!.. how old are you then?!.. older than me right?!.. so how come?!.. argh!.. let's leave it all here..

stressed... iam...

i love mah bes so much.. that's why.. i was the one who made the first move.. heheh.. di ako nanunumbat bessy.. hehe.. de,. it was my fault din kac..

newy...

"the more God gives you, the more responsible he expects you to be..."..

-this works for me... especially right now..

i got to chat with mela last night.. and it was PERFECT.. i got my strength again from her.. and i was expecting it.. how i miss mela... =( d ble.. mey pramis naman ako syo banding.. ccross country ako para syo!!!!!. =) gagalingan ko din.. preho lang tyo.. passion for volleyball ba to?!.. hahaha!! miss you so much!!  iloveyou!.. HUG.